Everyday it gets more and more real... Today was one of the hardest days yet. I am feeling so many different emotions right now... joy, peace, sadness, longing, fear. I am feeling these things because today I moved out of the house that I have been living in for the last year. For the next month I will be living with some very dear friends from church. Actually, they are more like family. I made the decision to only take to their house what I will be taking with me to Mexico. This avoids me having to pack everything twice. So, with the help of a friend, I fit everything into two suitcases and a duffle bag.
It was really weird packing my bedroom knowing that I wouldn't be unpacking those boxes for at least seven months. I kept constantly asking myself questions like, "Will I need this in Mexico? How many pairs of pants do I take? Do I take my pillow? What about when it gets cold? How many pairs of shoes?" Hahaha, as you can imagine, it took me a while.
Moving out of this house also brings so many different emotions because I am not only leaving my things (which are just things) but I am leaving behind three of the greatest roommates and friends I have ever had. We lived in a ministry through our church called "College Housing". There are houses all over Spokane filled with college-age people who live and do ministry together. College Housing is designed for friendship and spiritual growth. That is exactly what this house was for us... A place where our friendships grew deeper and stronger than we ever imagined, and a place where we were able to grow our faith in community with other Christians. We shared countless memories, late nights filled with laughs, tears, deep conversations, complete randomness. We shared a unique bond while living together. I guess I can't say shared because I believe that the bond we created will last our whole lives. We were able to create this bond because we are unified in Jesus Christ. We experienced many different situations over the last year and in every single one we were always brought back to this bond... we were always brought back to Jesus. When we were upset with each other, hurt by each other, laughing with each other, celebrating each other... This bond was always there. And I am confident that it always will be. I am a better person because of them and I will never forget everything that I learned while being their roommate. I am so incredibly excited for the new chapter in my life, but these three girls are one of the hardest things to leave behind.
God is so good at bringing us peace in times like these. He is so loving... so compassionate... so gracious. I find the Lord always brings me back to this song... I posted some lyrics from it in my first blog...
"You call me out upon the water, the great unknown, where feet may fail. And there I find you in the mystery, in oceans deep, my faith will stand."
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